Baby Shower Day… yay

And so the baby shower is over. I did up the place with balloons and streamers. I baked 2 dozen cupcakes, dyed the icing blue, iced the cupcakes and added a little bitty plastic duck into each of them… I baked a cake and did the same with the blue icing, adding slightly larger ducks on top (the blue icing was supposed to be the water, duh)… I had a big spread of Subway sandwiches with all the extras… chips,drinks, a big personalized banner, games, prizes for the games… 2 bouquets of flowers, one of Jack’s favorite flower and the other was of these beautiful white daisies… candies, cookies, personalized candy bars… what else could there have been?  I worked really hard on this. I bought even more gifts to give Jack for her shower, even though I had already given her several gifts before.  

I had considered this shower to be my closure from her.  The situation with her has kept me upset for a very long time and I thought that putting my all into this shower (as opposed to half-assing it) would be the best thing. If she continues to ignore me and not talk to me on a personal level, then that is fine because I did absolutely everything I could do, including throwing her a nice shower with most all of her friends invited.  After today, I can’t feel like there was or is anything else I can do… it’s out of my hands completely. And now, at this point, now that I have officially done everything I could, I am not worried about what happens next.  That’s a good feeling for once.  

The funny thing is that I don’t see it as closure anymore.  This isn’t a bad thing.  I guess it’s because it will not bother me now if she never talks to me again.  It’s whatever now.  (I’m shrugging my shoulders.)

The shower itself was pretty good.  There were lots of decorations and the food was good.  The people all knew each other, so there wasn’t that weirdness that you can sometimes run into.  There was a lot of laughing and it was really nice.  I think everyone had a good time.  The cleanup was pretty easy.  One of the girls stayed behind and helped out, which was nice of her. A couple of other people asked if I needed help, but did so with their hands full and with coats on as they were walking out of the door, so I declined the offer.  I didn’t care if anyone helped clean up.  It was going to be easy anyways.  But still, it was also nice that I didn’t have to do it all.  The only thing left is the main table, which still has food on it, so I’m not worried about it yet.  

John leaves for the field again tomorrow morning.  His dinner is a Subway sandwich with chips.  hahaha  Guess what I will be eating for lunch tomorrow at work… yes, a Subway sandwich with chips.  I’m also taking 15 leftover cupcakes with the little ducks on them.  I’m sure someone will eat them.  It’s better than having them here while I’m by myself.  I will never eat them.  

So yeah, I’m glad the shower is over.  I tend to stress a bit with stuff like this, mainly because I constantly worry that people aren’t having a good time.  But after it’s over, I always feel great because it’s always a big weight being lifted.  So right now I am feeling pretty good.  I had a good get-together and now I am relaxed.  Ahhhhhhh….